Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Journey to the Edge of Texas Chapter 12


Chapter 12

Dog Ado

"GOOD AFTERNOON," PETROU said, turning to the next witness. "Can you give the ladies and gentlemen of the jury your full name, please?"
"Marguerete Johnston which was my professional name, and Barnes, which is my married name, Marguerete Johnston Barnes."
"Can you tell us what year you were born and how old you are?"
"I certainly can. I was born in 1917, and I'm now 76."
"And how many years did you spend in the newspaper business?"
"From 1939 to 1985,"
"So is that over 40 years?"
"Yeah."
"In your career as a journalist and writer, did you come across — did you cross paths with Oveta Gulp Hobby?"
"Yes. I was very fortunate."
"Where did you meet Mrs. Hobby?"

WHEN I CAME TO  HOUSTON, I had had what I thought was the most glorious job in the whole world as a Washington correspondent. I didn't want to do anything less. So I offered to teach creative writing at the University of Houston, but I soon got lonesome for newspapers because that's what I liked to do. And my former publisher was a very beloved figure in American journalism and he wrote Mrs. Hobby about me and she promptly had me to lunch and the next day hired me."
"And can you tell us what was your last job at The Houston Post? What did you eventually end up doing at The Post?"
"My last job was assistant editor of the editorial page. Now, I have to tell you I didn't do any editing. I was writing that whole time." "Did you review some editorials?" "I read every editorial before it went to press.”
"Do you remember while working for The Post, running across Carl Leatherwood?"
"Yes, of course, I do."
"And do you remember at one time helping him with one of the very first editorials he ever wrote?"
"That's interesting. I didn't think Carl needed any help."
"But if he testified in this trial that you reviewed his first editorial and made comments about it, would that be accurate?"
"Well, it's very nice of him to say so. I hope I did him some good."
"I would like to show what's been premarked as Plaintiffs Exhibit B."
"Yes, I remember that editorial."
"Who wrote it?"
"Carl."
"What did you think of that editorial?"
"I thought it was excellent."
"Could he become a full-time writer?"
"I don't know why not."
"So he could become, in your opinion, a full-time editorial writer?"
Kalmans: "Objection. He's leading the witness."
The court: "I'm going to overrule the objection."
"I see no reason why he shouldn't. This is a very well-written editorial."
One editorial that was a court exhibit was entitled "Ape and essence." A Rice University professor had taken the trouble to write, calling the piece "erudite."

THE GHOST OF VICTOR FRANKENSTEIN, the fictional scientist who gave life to a ghoulish creature, resides in northern China as Dr. Ji "Yongxiang. Ji has proposed, indeed has already attempted, to produce a near-human ape by fertilizing a chimpanzee with human sperm. He would put this new species to work herding sheep and cows, mining and exploring space and the sea. He also sees the ape-human as a solution to the problem of human rejection of animal organs in transplants.
This futuristic idea leaves itself open to many jabs, but the aspect of reducing noxious labor is as bothersome as any. Consider, for example, the shepherd cast out of the valley and onto the automobile assembly line. Are we really doing him a favor? The job of herding sheep no longer holds esteem as in the biblical time of David. It means hard work and the physical hazards of lightning, bears, hornets and snakes. Worst of all, it isolates the worker from family and friends and from modern conveniences.
But there is simplicity in the shepherd's life. He eats fresh trout for breakfast and bathes in a tub of water set in the sun. Orange paintbrush and towering pines may decorate the herder’s path. He develops a talent with animals—horses, dogs and, of course, sheep—and feels at home with wildlife.
As a spot-welder in an automobile assembly plant the transplanted worker would stand on one spot pushing a button on a welding gun 12,000 times a day. Tremendous noise would rule out wool-gathering. On a night shift he still would likely lose much of his contact with family and friends. His redemption would be a good paycheck.
Admittedly, the change in jobs is conjecture. But in applying scientific knowledge to change the face of the work force, industry must fully consider job satisfaction, the quality of a major part of a worker’s life. In the case of the shepherd, standing under brilliant stars flashing in a blue canopy or standing with a flashing welding gun?
If the point is debatable, if the abolition of human need to herd sheep or to perform certain tasks in space has merit, please consider further. The ape-human would likely share our emotions. Frankenstein's monster did. He yearned for the love and sympathy of cottagers he observed in the German countryside. Airs played on a guitar were so entrancingly beautiful he shed tears of sorrow and delight. Should we enslave in any task the human spirit, even if it is breathed by such a creature? No. The spirit is still human, and we fought a war to end its subjection to slavery.

There were lighter contributions to the editorial page, take a kiss:

FROM WHAT A TEXAS A&M UNIVERSITY professor tells us, the custom of kissing must belong to more civilized peoples. Vaughn M. Bryant Jr., the head of that school's Department of Anthropology, says kissing became a national craze in Roman times, "as commonplace as shaking hands." Among medieval knights, he said, the ability to kiss nicely was a sign of gentility.
But people on the South Seas island of Mangaia only recently learned about kissing. And some, such as West Africans in the mid-1800s, feared it, the professor said. Bryant believes kissing began with a misplaced nose rub in 1000-1200 B.C. in India, where a hob/ man wrote the world's first how-to manual centuries later. Ah, civilization?

And this editorial about a canoe...

A SINGLE JOURNEY WESTWARD from the center of his world ended on a prairie in Minnesota.  But writer and naturalist Henry David Thoreau, who traveled mostly in and about Concord, Mass., would have enjoyed Texas in the spring in a canoe. In the spring, more than 570 species of native grasses (out of 1,200 in the United States) and approximately 5,000 different native wildflowers burst anew upon the land. A canoe trip on New England's Concord and Merrimack rivers in 1830 inspired him to develop a natural philosophy. And 80,000 miles of streams, more navigable by canoe than power boat, flow mostly through rural Texas.
For those who wish a Thoreauean experience, many of the stated rivers and creeks will do. From the canyon walls of the Rio Grande at Big Bend to the white sand bars of Village Creek in the Big Thicket, and the white water of the Hill Country in between, the canoe will slice silently into a wondrous environment This year two canoeists and a small dog chose the Brazos River between Lake Whitney and Waco to welcome spring.
Bluebonnets and Indian paintbrush already lined the route there. On the river, as the current assisted the paddlers with their pea pod of a vehicle, ducks and blue herons took flight. A warm sun penetrated six feet of clear water where schools of large fish swayed plants and turtles rested on a rock bottom. Springs flowed through thick ferns down a limestone bluff, while trees were greening on the opposite bank.
Read or listen to the rich history of a region, and the mind can see more than the eye. It can feel the presence of the Spanish who named the river, the Anglo-American pioneers in the 1800s who forded Spivey Crossing in wagons and plowed the fields of Smith Bend, the turn-of-the-century campers who left graffiti and the Indians whose garbage has become a dig.
This trip the Brazos canoeists basked in the first full calendar day of spring before a norther pushed through their camp. Winter was reluctant to die. But, as Thoreau said, the life that had lain torpid had begun to stretch itself.

DID   YOU   KNOW  A L s o that Carlton Leatherwood wrote features from time to time?" "I read them, yes." "How were his features?" "Pleasant. An addition to the paper."
"In addition to being a full-time editorial writer, did you feel that he could be a full-time feature writer?"
"Oh, I don't see what we're aiming at, but I knew Carl; he wrote well. At that time I would have said that—"
"That he could be a writer?"
"Sure."

No doubt, she liked the piece on Southeast Texas writer and radio celebrity Gordon Baxter.

     WHEN CHRYSLER CHIEF LEE IACOCCA, 61, married a former airline flight attendant twenty-six years his junior, I thought of Gordon Baxter.
Baxter, also in his seventh decade, is a writer and an institution in Beaumont radio—a teller of tales, he calls himself—whose much younger wife Diane flew for Braniff. His musings occasionally appear in the opinion section of The Post. The first years of the couple’s marriage and of their precocious daughter’s young life were spent in a cabin on Village Creek. That creek winds through the Big Thicket, a heavily wooded and ecologically mixed area north of Beaumont. Some of it has been preserved by the National Park Service.


Gordon Baxter is a writer and a radio celebrity in Beaumont

Ever since I read Baxter's book, Village Creek, I had wanted to canoe by his cabin, maybe meet the man whose love affair with the stream runs a half century. Those fifteen acres in the Thicket have been his Walden, and it is always a pleasure to come in contact with a person close to nature.
Because the Thicket can easily shield a house from view on the creek, I abandoned the idea of canoeing to the cabin and instead drove over. The family has moved into town, to accommodate the accelerated education and people needs of Jenny, but returns to the cabin on weekends.
On the weekend of my visit, Baxter had repaired the leaks in two small pirogues in his home workshop and brought them back to the creek. A pirogue is a boat somewhat canoe-shaped and some are hollowed out of cypress logs. Baxter built these little eight-foot pirogues out of plywood for the two sons of his first family thirty years ago. After surviving repeated rammings in childhood war games on the water, "they had been kinda dormant over the years," Baxter said. Then Jenny became a good swimmer, and she cast her eyes on these pirogues like she was seeing them for the first time."
Jenny had dragged one into the water and impressed her dad with not rolling it over. "They are very tender—ten inches wide at the bottom—and she just sailed out," Baxter said. "She had picked up a big old awkward one-bladed paddle and still handled it OK." Today, Jenny pushed off in the repaired boat with a double-bladed paddle and without the problem of leaks, and her joy shone.

8 year old Jennie Baxter glides through Village Creek in a pirogue

Her dad discovered the joy of canoeing to and from this sand bar in his teens. He and a pal built a canvas boat in the 1930s and drove up to a Village Creek bridge from Port Arthur in a Model A.
"We would come up and launch into the creek and float down the creek, and this was about as far as you could go without getting tired and thirsty," Baxter said. "I would pull up on this sand bar and lie under that line of willows and just lust for the place."
In intervening years the sand bar, white quartz crystal stretching some 100 yards, and its attached woodland, have become a realized dream of Baxter’s youth.
Baxter suggested Jenny and I climb into an aluminum canoe with him to paddle around the sandbar and up a baygall on the property. A baygall is a swampy piece of land in the Thicket with a variety of trees, notably red bay, common bald cypress and May hawthorn. Once you see one, you feel swampland has gotten a bad rap—in truth it possesses an awesome, tranquil beauty. We didn't, however, make it to this one by canoe. "I thought the creek was high enough that we could canoe into the baygall, and it ain't," the creek romantic said. "It’s always changing. I didn't know this [a ridge of sand] was here. It wasn't here last year. This is this year’s surprise."
We sat and talked under the willows on the bank of the little eddy.
"That big blue bird that you saw, that’s the great blue heron." Baxter said. "We may be looking at her daughter, but a blue heron has been here as long as I've been here to notice the creatures. She lives back somewhere in the baygall and feeds from these sand bars."
The heron, to Baxter, is the Spirit of the Holy Ghost Thicket. "Archer Fullingim (the late publisher of the Kountze News) named this place the Holy Ghost Thicket because he said if you stay back in here long enough you begin to speak in tongues," Baxter explained. "Archer was one of the prime movers to save the Big Thicket, he and Sen. Ralph Yarborough. The people who lived here didn't want it to be a park. When the word got out that the world’s record magnolia tree was in the Big Thicket in Hardin County, a group of them went out at night and cut the thing down. The ivory-billed woodpecker was a favorite target of characters who wandered through the woods carrying something to shoot. They got them all down to where they were about extinct, and Archer began to publicize the fact Save the ivory bill woodpecker became his cry. One day one of his neighbors came in carrying his rifle in one hand and a dead ivory-billed woodpecker in the other and dropped it on Archer's desk. He said, ‘Is that what you've been looking for?' It was the first one Archer had ever seen and it was the last one and it was dead."
"I believe the creek will heal you," Baxter said. The clouds riding the warm, moist air from the Gulf of Mexico closed together on the last rays of morning sunshine. "I've always suspected that there is such a combination of pollutants in the creek that it will shine the aluminum on your outboard motor and also heal minor cuts and wounds. I also vow that the creek heals my mind. I've walked the sand bar in all the ups and downs of my life, in the victories and the tragedies. I've walked the sand bar and cried out, 'Oh Lord, what do you want of me?’ The sand bar is the place for that; it is my sand-floored cathedral ... after a while you begin to know which way to go."
Jenny was between us listening attentively. We knew that for sure later when she asked what speaking in tongues was. Her father had sung and danced on the sand bar to pacify her as a baby. "She had the croup and the colic, and oh, she had a terrible time," Baxter said. "I would take Jenny in my arms—stiff, crying, and flailing her arms—in the middle of the night, and I would take her down the front steps of the cabin and out on the sand bar. We would walk in the moonlight, and I would hold her ear up against my heart so she could hear my heart beating. I walked in a slow, steady, rhythmic pace singing. If Jenny grows up and can remember all the old rabble songs, all of the barroom songs, all of the early day, foot-stomping, Baptist-come-to-Jesus revival songs ... I sang everything I knew to her, and she would grow warm and limp and quit crying ... Diane said it was self-defense that she would stop crying.
Later that afternoon, stopping near Kirbyville to buy juice of the fruit of the May hawthorn, I wished I had asked the Baxters for the recipe for mayhaw jelly. Local residents call the trees mayhaws, and Fullingim had given them his recipe. He had sent his jelly to the White House until he and President Lyndon Johnson got crossed up on politics, my host explained.
I didn't ask for the mayhaw recipe because I was mindful of Thicket mores as set down in Baxter’s purchase of his sand-bar property. He had mentioned to the owners he wanted to buy it, and ten years later they sold it to him. He asked them why they waited so long. "We wanted to wait a little and find out what kind of feller you are," they answered.
How long, Bax and Diane, for a recipe that will curl up your toes on the chair rungs and make your eyes water and your nose run and you will know that there is indeed a God in heaven in all his mystery?

DID   you   EVER   OBSERVE   Carl Leatherwood making big disruptions in the newsroom?" "No."
"Did you ever see him bring his dog into the newsroom?"
"No. Others brought their dogs."
"Pardon me?"
"I'll—if you want to bring a dog to the newsroom, I don't think there were any rules against it."
"Okay."
Kalmans: "Objection, Your Honor. That's obviously not responsive to any question."
The court: "All right."
Johnston: "Sorry."
"After you left The Post, did you continue writing?"
"Oh, yes."
"And are you an author now?"
"Yes."
"What is your book called?"
"Houston, the Unknown City: 1836 to 1946."
"Thank you for coming."
Kalmans stepped closer to the stand:
"Ms. Johnston, when did you leave the employment of The Houston Post?"
"January 1, 1985."
"All right, You have no personal knowledge of anything that went on at The Post after that date, do you?"
"No, none."
"Pass the witness."

     JUDGE GIBSON: "The defense will call its first witness."
Bounds: "Your Honor, at this time we call Dr. Richard _    Pesikoff."
Bruce Coane, a lawyer for the plaintiff: "Your Honor, may we take this witness on voir dire?"
Gibson: "Why would you want to take him on voir dire?"
Coane: "Your Honor, this witness is being called as an expert witness. He does not have any information about relevant facts. It's our position that he is not a qualified expert to testify in this case. His expertise has nothing to do with the issues."
Gibson: "What is his expertise?"
Bounds: "Psychiatry with an expertise in manic and all emotional disorders."
Coane: "His resume as presented to us shows he's an expert in child psychiatry. It has nothing to do with this case."
Gibson: "I overrule the objection. I overrule your request to voir dire."
"Would you state your occupation, please?" Bounds asked.
"I'm an associate clinical professor of psychiatry at Baylor College of Medicine. I'm in the private practice of adult and child psychiatry, serving about half adults and about half children and adolescents. I'm also a psychoanalyst."
"Okay. Have you ever done an actual examination of Carlton Leatherwood?"
"No, ma'am. I have not met him."
"Have you reviewed any record regarding Carlton Leatherwood?"
"Extensively."
"In what capacity are you here today, Dr. Pesikoff?"
"I was retained to review the records and give a medical opinion of everything I have read."
"How familiar are you with the disorder of manic depressive disorder?"
"Well, very much so."
"You have patients that have been diagnosed with that disorder?"
"Yes, I do. Many."
"Have there been any significant changes in the treatment of manic depressive disorder?"
"In the last few years, because we've had a number of patients who did not respond well to lithium, we've added some of the other drugs which were mainly for seizure disorders. Depakote and Tegretol are two that we use now with a lot more freedom. We try to mix them sometimes to get better results."
"And what does Depakote do?"
"Well, I don't think any of us truly knows what any of these drugs actually do. As a net result, they are given in order to stop the kind of up-and-down, up-and-down manic depressive episodes that these patients suffer with—the mechanism isn't real clear as to exactly how that happens because there isn't any naturally found lithium or Depakote in people's bodies."
"After having reviewed all these records, do you have an opinion about the general diagnosis of Carl Leatherwood?"
“Yes, I do."
"What is your opinion with regard to the general diagnosis of Carl Leatherwood?"
"I would agree with the diagnosis that I read in Dr. Ranjit Chacko's report from Methodist Hospital this last month. I think he has a bipolar illness. I think it's severe. It's been present for about seventeen years now, to the best of my figuring. It's been a terrible illness for him. I do think bipolar manic depressive illness is a proper diagnosis."
"You say that you think he has a severe case of this bipolar disorder. Has it always been severe?"
"I think it's been getting worse and worse. He started out, typically, like many patients do in their thirties, with his first episode. He’s had thirteen, I counted thirteen, hospitalizations up until this October. I may have missed one. That's a lot of hospitalizations in seventeen years. That's a pretty severe illness when you're in and out.
"And during that entire period, Mr. Leatherwood has had different degrees of contact with doctors. It's not like he hasn't gone for help. I mean, he's certainly tried to get help. And in spite of that, his illness is so malignant and so significant that it has continued—keeps breaking through. He has periods when he's okay, even some periods when he had a couple of years he was all right. Then he goes down and down and down. It has an unfortunate downward course and it's not been possible—I've read all his records—for us to stop that in the state of medical science today."
"Based upon your expertise, do you have an opinion about the general course of treatment that's been given to Carl Leatherwood?"
"I think it's been—he went through a series of different diagnoses. I don't think he got on to lithium until the '80s. I think that was fortunate. At least it appeared to be a fortunate breakthrough for him, but even that hasn't really helped. I think his illness has continued to be a severe illness that's been downwardly focused. Maybe his symptoms have changed, according to the chart, but there's certainly little doubt in my mind that it's a manic depressive illness at this point."
"Is there some point in Mr. Leatherwood's course of this illness that you believe he has started his downward approach that you're talking about or has it always been downward?"
"The first, I guess, twelve years, thirteen years, he had eight or nine hospitalizations. It's always been a severe illness for him. And as I read his symptoms, he had these terribly psychotic episodes where he would become very confused, lose his contact with reality, and need to be in a hospital for a period of time, and that has continued up until the present."
"Is that unusual for that type of course to be taken for this type of illness?"
"Unfortunately, that's not unusual at all."
"But there are people who have bipolar disorder who don't have this spiraling down; is that correct?"
"Thank goodness. Most of the patients that we have who are manic depressives have, let's say, a mild or a medium severity of this disorder. And they may have one or two hospitalizations where we really do pick up on it and they may go years without any problems. There are a lot of factors which influence whether or not you're going to be a pretty good patient. Some of it's biological. Some has to do with your support system, you know, your husband, wife, kids, things like that, the kind of job you do and so forth. But most patients, if they take their medicine, if they're complying patients, if their illness
doesn't interfere with their ability to know they need their medicine, have a milder course than Mr. Leatherwood has had."
"But in your opinion, Mr. Leatherwood is not in this category of mild?"
"No, he's not. He's not for a number of reasons. He's had too many episodes, very severe illnesses. And one of the worst things about his illness is that when he starts getting ill, he believes he doesn't need his medicine. Of course, at that point, he stops his lithium. You can read his records. He comes into the hospital with almost no lithium in his blood system, which tells you he's stopped his medicine. Of course, then it just gets worse and worse."
"Specifically, I'd like to turn your attention to the fall of 1988. Are you familiar with the hospitalization that Mr. Leatherwood had in December of 1988?"
"Yes, I am."
"He was hospitalized in the middle of December 1988; is that correct? Is that your understanding?"
"Yes, it is."
"Do you have an opinion about when this episode actually began?"
"From the best I can read, it was building up for a couple of months before—September-October. That's what is referenced in the various notes in the chart."
"Is there any significance to the fact that Carl Leatherwood was involuntarily hospitalized for the first time in this particular episode in 1988?"
"It speaks to what I'm saying. The fact that the illness is getting worse, his ability to see himself is deteriorating. He's already, at that point, out of contact with reality. You can't reason with him. You can't just say, Carl, you're not doing well; you've got to go in the hospital. He can't hear you. My patients tell me when they are in that state, Dr. Pesikoff, I can't hear you. I can't reason with you. You don't make any sense to me. I don't see anything wrong with me.
"So you would, therefore, need to go to the authorities, down to probate court, get a court order, and have the patient picked up and involuntarily confined. That would be indicative of a worsening of his illness and a loss of insight into his illness."
"In your opinion, was this episode more severe than the previous episodes he had?"
"It seemed to be more so, yes."
"Based upon that, would this episode have been perceived by other people around Mr. Leatherwood?"
"Absolutely."
"At what point in an episode such as this does a patient lose their ability to reason or have judgment?"
"In severe versions of manic depressive illness, the window of opportunity, to use a familiar phrase, for a number of my severe patients, is one to two days. And they call me—they say, I was up all night, I'm pacing, we've got to do something. That's that one or two days. I get their husband or wife—I'm just thinking of a lady in particular—down to my office. We get a lithium blood test that day and we start to pump in more medication and try to avoid—I'm not always successful in keeping this kind of patient out of the hospital."
"If the patient is not able of their own accord to notice that there's a beginning of a problem or if they don't have someone around like a husband or a wife who lives with them and notices those sorts of things, what is the possibility that you're going to catch them within that window?"
"Negligible. I can't even catch them with husbands and wives overseeing them. And if you have nobody watching you, that day or two or three, that window just passes by without anything happening and then you're in the midst of that bizarre psychotic period."
"What if a person is employed, could their coworkers be expected to notice that window?"
"I think that's asking an awful lot. I can't even pick it up sometimes. It can flash by. It can happen over a weekend. There's no way. Yes, on occasion, I think you might say something to a fellow employee if they were acting weirdly, yes; but, I mean, as a routine, by the time you try to convince them to go somewhere, that's a very, very unrealistic proposition."
"Mr. Leatherwood returned to work in January of 1989. In Defendant's Exhibit No. 3, there are several pages of Dr. Blackburn's notes following that hospitalization that December. On page 40, could you tell us what you find?"
"1/14/89 shows that he's taking lithium carbonate, 300 milligrams, two tablets twice a day. That's 600 milligrams twice a day for a total of 1200 milligrams. That would be a reasonable dosage of medication."
"Do those notes indicate any problems that Mr. Leatherwood is having?"
"Personally, there's something about parents—some kind of interpersonal conflict between girl friend and his parents and Mr. Leatherwood."
"Throughout these notes, there is again a note dated January 28th where there was a session. February 11th of '89, there was a session. February 25th of '89, there was a session. March 11th. Do you notice in these notes of Dr. Blackburn's anything of particular concern for you with regard to Mr. Leatherwood's condition?"
"Yes. You can watch the quality of the notes change as you get to March llth. I highlighted my series of notes in the middle. It says paranoia recurs, suspicious that some of the stories had been formulated. So Dr. Blackburn in March of that year is writing in his records that once again he's picking up that paranoia in Mr. Leatherwood. And, of course, paranoia is one of Mr. Leatherwood's major psychotic symptoms when he's ill. He's very paranoid. And so it's already there in the March office notes of his physician."
"Based upon your review of his hospitalizations and his conditions this time, do you have an opinion about Mr. Leatherwood's condition during this period of time?"
"I think he's continued to be ill. He has never recovered fully from this severe episode, and by March of 1989, he once again is back in a paranoid state. So it's one long, continuous downward illness with a drop of some recovery and then it's down again and he's falling again."
"In looking at these records, is it your opinion that Mr. Leatherwood in the past had been able to recover a relatively acceptable degree of stability?"
"I guess it depends on what kind of job you're talking about. My understanding is that because of his illness, The Post created a position for him in the '80s so that he could remain with the corporation, so that while he couldn't go back after a few of these hospitalizations, they did try to keep him and they made a new job to fit him. But by '89 after years of this illness, it doesn't appear that he could maintain himself even for a couple of months now without again becoming psychotic."
"Mr. Leatherwood was hospitalized again in June of 1989; is that correct?"
"Yes, it is."
"Do you have an opinion as to when this episode that resulted in the hospitalization in June of '89 began?"
"In December of '88, probably in September or October of '88. It sounds like one long, downward spiral, like a stock that's dropping, then has some little upticks and then drops again. I think he was in the course of a malignant portion of his illness, a tragic kind of illness, and they stopped it for a while in December; but, unfortunately, his health doesn't always respond the way we want it to, and it resumed its downward spiral soon after the hospitalization of December of'88."
"Dr. Blackburn's records reflect a change in Mr. Leatherwood's medication on June 3rd. Could you tell us what the purpose of that change in medication may have been?"
"Dr. Blackburn must have been picking up what we're seeing because he wanted to use one of the major tranquilizers. He was adding Mellaril, which is like Thorazine, Prolixin. And in his notes, he writes, hypomanic episode, meaning that the man is on the cusp already now of a major manic episode."
"How does a manic depressive disorder affect a patient's judgment?"
"Terribly. Terribly. I mean, it's a horrible illness. When you are psychotic, your judgment is centered around your bizarre thinking. So in the midst of the full-blown episode, you don't have any kind of judgment to be a doctor, a lawyer or anybody, a newspaper man.
"During the periods when you're shy of that full-blown illness but you're in a hypomanic state, your judgment is impaired. You rush things. Your speech is pressured. You have trouble sitting still. You have trouble concentrating. You're agitated. You're very irritable. You don't sleep at night."
"Dr. Blackburn wrote a letter on June 29th releasing Mr. Leatherwood to return to his normal duties immediately. Have you read that letter?"
"Yes, I have."
"Do you have an opinion as to whether or not Mr. Leatherwood should have been returned to work in June of 1989? If so, could you please tell the court what it is?"
"I think this is a well-meaning letter, but it is a very misleading letter. I don't think Mr. Leatherwood was anywhere capable of working. I don't know Dr. Blackburn's motivation for writing it other than trying to be nice maybe to his patient; but, A, the man did not have a hypomanic mood shift. He had a manic episode. You don't hospitalize hypomanic disorders—at the price hospitals charge for full-blown manic episodes. This man in no way has recovered from his illness.
"There's nothing in the notes that indicate anything that tells me that he is able to go back to work. Usually what you do with patients who've had severe illnesses is you give them a chance to recuperate. I don't care whether it's a broken leg, a hysterectomy, or psychotic episode, you know. You give people a week or two or three to go home and try to collect themselves."
"Following the writing of this letter on June 29th, Dr. Blackburn wrote a letter on August 11th. I believe you have it.
"That letter, according to Dr. Blackburn's testimony, was written to aid Mr. Leatherwood in obtaining various benefits. That letter indicates, I believe, about the middle of the second paragraph that Mr. Leatherwood is not in his opinion able to continue with his regular occupation. Is that a correct paraphrase of the letter?"
"Yes. He writes, 'Because of these unpredictable episodes and the necessity of hospitalization, I cannot say that Mr. Leatherwood would be able to perform the material duties of his occupation with a reasonable continuity.'"
"Do you think that's a major shift in opinion from the June 29 letter?"
"This is my opinion of Mr. Leatherwood. I agree with his opinion. It's a 180-degree change in direction from everything else that's been written by his physician. I mean, he writes he is disabled with respect to his performance. I agree with Dr. Blackburn. I think the man was disabled for a long time."
"Do you find anything in Carl Leatherwood's medical records to establish any basis for this 180-degree change by Dr. Blackburn in a period of six weeks?"
"No."
"And in November, Mr. Leatherwood was hospitalized again; is that correct?"
"November 1989, that is correct."
"Dr. Blackburn has in his records prior to that hospitalization, a statement that he had received numerous phone calls over a period of about a month from friends and family and others regarding Mr. Leatherwood's condition. Is that unusual to receive those types of phone calls?"
"No, it's not unusual. If you have a couple of friends or wife or kids who are current with you, you may get calls from concerned people telling you that their friend or their spouse is ill. I mean, that certainly happens in my practice."
"If you'd received calls from people such as this, but then you had had a visit with your patient and you did not observe any obvious delusions or hyperactivity or loud behavior, would you dismiss the calls and decide that you were the more competent person to decide about their emotional stability?"
"I think that's naive. I think you see them maybe fifteen minutes or half an hour every month and these people either work with them or live with them and know them and see them all the time in a noncontrolled environment. I don't think you can ignore—what I do is I ask them to come in. I also have them call my nurse, usually, every single day when in the middle of one of these episodes. I usually believe the people who are calling because there's no reason for them to lie to me. Why would they call a psychiatrist and lie to them? These people who are ill slide right out from your hands like mercury. You really have to hold on tight. It's a real challenging piece of work for a physician to do. And if it's looking more and more to me like we're going to end up having to hospitalize this patient, maybe get them in a little bit sooner so they don't end up in one of these severe psychotic episodes."
"If, as in the case of Mr. Leatherwood, the course of treatment is a little bit less controlled than you tend to treat your patients, can the people around them be expected to control Mr. Leatherwood?"
"Don't be misled, even by the fact that I ride tight rein on my patients, I can't always control them. I have patients who I do my very best to control who end up in the hospital. I think the illness is stronger than me, my nurse."
"November 22, 1989, Dr. Blackburn wrote another letter, this time to the Social Security Administration. In that letter, he writes that Mr. Leatherwood has been mostly seriously disabled since September of 1988. Do you agree with this assessment?"
"Yes, I really believe that that is the truth. I think he did in fact write the truth, that the man had been severely disabled since the fall of the previous year, yes. It goes on to say, you know, he was restless, hyperactive, sleepless at times, psychotic, delusional—I think that's all true."
"Based upon your understanding of his job and your understanding of Mr. Leatherwood's condition in 1989, did his condition impair his ability to perform that job?"
"Absolutely."
"Pass the witness, Your Honor."
Witness: "I could get a little water?"
Judge: "Yes."
Coane stepped forward: "Would you like to proceed, Doctor, or would you want to wait for the water?"
"I think we can go on."
"Okay. Doctor, so in your opinion—well, let me ask you this: Is it your understanding that Carl wants to return to work?"
"That's been his position, as best I understand it, that he's wanted to work, yes."
"Okay. And despite his desire to work, it's your opinion that Carl Leatherwood cannot return to work; is that right?"
"Are you talking about at The Houston Post?"
"Let's start with The Post. Yes, at The Post."
"Yes, that's correct,"
"Have you read any of his writing?"
"I've read all his works. All the ones that were in the addendum to the deposition."
"Did you find in reviewing those articles that there was any evidence in there that he was delusional or paranoid or manic?"
"No."
"So in the periods where he's not delusional, paranoid, or manic, you would agree that he can probably perform his job?"
Bounds: "Objection, Your Honor. What he's discussing is writing articles on his free time, not what his job was at The Post."
Judge: "Let the witness do the responding."
"Given the circumstances that you're describing of writing ad-lib articles, I guess, casually with no pressure, no time limits, yes, I think he can probably still write. I hope he can."
"Doctor, at some point in this lawsuit, I was given a copy of your curriculum vitae. Just so we're clear on this, you don't claim to be an expert in the newspaper business; is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"If you had to name one area of expertise in your practice of psychiatry, what would that be?"
"Would be very difficult because I have about three or four areas where I specialize."
"Right. And child psychiatry is one of them?"
"Oh, absolutely. Child psychiatry, adult psychiatry. I'm a board certified adult psychiatrist. I'm a general psychiatrist. I was chief of one of the hospitals for three years. I write on issues of custody in the law. There are a number of areas."
"If you'll glance at your curriculum vitae that you have in front of you there, would you agree that the bulk of your major educational and research interests are in child psychiatry, at least according to your curriculum vitae?"
"I get tapped at Baylor to teach that because there are much fewer child psychiatrists and I often do the TV and public relations work for Baylor because we don't have a lot of child-adolescent psychiatrists, so a lot of my presentations are on child and adolescent. But the six years I spent at the Psychoanalytic Institute, Houston-Galveston Institute, was all adult.
"Let's look at the major educational and research interests on your curriculum vitae. You listed five of them. Would you read them to the jury, please?"
"Adolescence and drug abuse, children and divorce, psychiatry and the law, psychological growth and development in childhood and adolescence, and sleeping disorders in children."
"Thank you. Also on your curriculum vitae here, I count about eight pages of publication, speeches, and lectures that you've given. And would you agree that most, if not all of these, have dealt with child or family psychiatry?"
"Yes, I would."
"You don't have any complaints with Dr. Blackburn's treatment of Mr. Leatherwood, do you?"
"I think I would have kept a tighter reign on Mr. Leatherwood in terms of some of those phone calls that came in. I think I probably would have tried to verify those. I would have probably asked the patient to keep in closer contact with me, rather than every three weeks since he's had such a severe history. And, of course, I am very confused by the variety of the notes and letters that Dr. Blackburn wrote. Otherwise, he had the medications, I think, the ones I would have used. I would agree with most of the other treatment."
"You used the word earlier when Ms. Bounds was questioning you 'disability.' Are you referring to manic depression as being a disability, or bipolar disorder, whatever y'all call it now?"
"Sure. I would call any mental or emotional illness a disability, be disabling, as I think it was here."
"Okay. From your understanding of the case, from 1976 until at least that episode in 1988 that led to his hospitalization, Mr. Leather-wood was able to perform the duties of his job unless he was having an episode; is that right?"
"That's my understanding, yes."
"Okay. So throughout that time, just to make sure we're clear on this, throughout the time of 1976 to 1988, it's your understanding that Mr. Leatherwood had a disability of manic depression, correct?"
"It wasn't really diagnosed that way in the earlier papers. To be fair to those doctors, they didn't call it manic depression. I don't want to change history. They called it schizophrenia, then they called it schizo-affective disorder, then it evolved to manic depressive. If I could change your words and say that he had a major psychiatric illness, diagnosis shifting, but, yes, I would agree to that land of phraseology."
"Okay. Did you ever notice in Dr. Blackburn's notes any comments about work or employment being therapeutic for Mr. Leather-wood?"
"I think he made reference to the fact that that was one area that Mr. Leatherwood actually was drawn to and it was one of his areas of strength, something he derived satisfaction from."
"Would your reading also indicate that the termination was a very distressful thing for Mr. Leatherwood?"
"I certainly agree that to have to be let go from a job is always very distressful, yes."
"Is it particularly distressful for someone in Mr. Leatherwood's mental condition, as you understand it?"
Bounds: "Objection, Your Honor. He's—"
The court: "Overrule the objection."
"I think he's a more sensitive person because he has this illness, and I would agree with that."
"Do you think that some day- in your opinion, do you think some day he could return to a job as a newspaper writer at a major newspaper?"
"I have a crystal ball in my office which I turn to in moments like this. No, I don't really think so. But I think a less stressful job, something that used his intellect and his writing skills, maybe he could do something with it. I would hope so."
"Sir, you're being paid to testify here today?"
"No. I'm being paid for my time and that is all that I have to sell, and I sell my time and my expertise."
"What do you sell your time for?"
"I get $300 an hour when I do this kind of work."
"Your diagnosis of Mr. Leatherwood is bipolar illness, chronic-severe with multiple episodes. Is it really ever possible for anyone with that diagnosis to work in any type of job."
"Sometimes, yes. It's not easy. The general course of those severe versions makes it really hard to do that. You know, if you had a job where you could do it at your own pace and didn't have any time lines and the conditions were ideal, some of the time he might be able to work, yes. I don't want to say that he couldn't work at something sometimes."
"Are you saying that even today he has never recovered from that severe episode of 1988?"
"The answer is I think he's had up and down, up and down—what has occurred has been going down. I think he's probably lucid now, although that's a guess. Dr. Chacko, his present doctor, is a good doctor. I know him. He's getting good care. I'm glad he is at Methodist with Dr. Chacko. He's on a different medical regimen. He's on val-proic acid and lithium now, which is a good mixture. And it looks good. I mean, I can only tell you that for the moment at least—that doesn't tell me—it's three weeks since he was in the hospital, so I'm not good enough about prognosticating. And I'm hopeful that maybe we've gotten a handle on it, but, I mean, that's my medical school talking. I wouldn't stress a job or anything like that right this minute, but he looks lucid to me."
"Do you have any reason to doubt that he enjoys the job of a writer and editor?"
"I think he loves writing. He wouldn't have worked for a newspaper all these years if he didn't love that."
"Do different writing jobs at The Post have different deadline requirements?"
"That's my understanding. I've worked with a number of reporters who've done investigative kinds of work, and they'll take months to put together stories. And then you have people who write about hurricanes and that's real on-the-spot stuff. The answer is yes."
Bounds returned to take up the questioning:
"Dr. Blackburn, have the effects of Mr. Leatherwood's mental illness—"
"Dr. Pesikoff."
"Sorry. I'm so busy listening to everybody talk about—Dr. Pesikoff, I will represent to you that Dr. Blackburn has testified that the reason for the difference between the two letters that you have a problem with, that being the June 29th letter and the August 11th letter from 1989, was his recognition of a severe depression in Carl Leatherwood. Did you find any evidence in Dr. Blackburn's records
of such a depression?"
"There's no mention in the notes of any severe depression."
"Is that something that you think a prudent doctor would have written in the notes if it had occurred?"
"I think if he had thought of it, he would have written it down, yes."
"Dr. Pesikoff, do you have an opinion as to whether or not Dr.
Blackburn did Mr. Leatherwood and The Post a good service?"
"I think he made it very confusing for The Houston Post and Mr.
Leatherwood by writing different letters at different times containing
different information so that it confused The Post, it confused Mr.
Leatherwood, and made it impossible for anybody to get an accurate
picture of his illness."
The court: "The witness is excused."

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Journey to the Edge of Texas Chapters 15, 16, 17, and 18



Telephone Blitz

THE   TELEPHONE   HAS   TRIPPED   ME   UP.
I occupied a pay phone on the psychiatric wing of Bexar County Hospital in San Antonio and called an old Scouts buddy who was now a general in the Air Force. How I saluted him I do not know. Whatever it was, it was not conducive to conversation, at least not memorable. I remember him flashing his most compassionate and authoritative voice and saying, "God Bless You," before hanging up.
Outside mania, he rarely surfaced, so it wasn't obsession. But if not on this occasion, then on others, when a jet was overhead, I imagined him in it, protecting me.
Before this admission, the buildings all around me were juxtaposed by a nearby ranch owner who could rearrange them with a toy laser.
And then I slept in a muddy field.
Deputies found me.
It is possible that in this series of delusions I flew from Austin with Chica in a first-class seat so that I could make a Harris County hearing. I called from the air that I would be late. I know that Harris County deputies drove down to San Antonio later to retrieve me.
I must say here that all officers, including those in Houston, Harris County, San Antonio and Bexar County, have provided exceptional treatment in seeing to my welfare. I am indebted.

THE    GENERAL    WAS    IN    GOOD     COMPANY getting a call from me when mania struck. But how I do the hat trick of producing his and others numbers I do not know. In the hospital I did not have pen and paper to write what the operators gave out. My goodness, at home I couldn't punch the buttons without looking at the number two or three times.
My ability, too, to find numbers when I am sick has been uncanny. Once, at my parents' home for a Thanksgiving dinner, I got notion to call a person whom I met a score of years earlier on a 1963 fishing trip to the Middle Fork of the Salmon River with Uncle Ed Thomasson. The girl was fourteen when we talked about integration in her dad's cafe, the Pheasant Cafe, in Richfield, Idaho.
She wrote a reply to my letter on stationary emblazoned with her name, Billie, in blue in the shape of a skirt, smart teen writing material. I kept it, and that is what set off my search for her during the holiday. It was postmarked at her mother's home in a small town near Boise. Low and behold, by checking directory assistance, I learned that her mother still lived there. Excited, I called in the middle of their dinner. Billie was there.
I called back, but small wonder, she didn't seem to remember me. I told her about the letter. She wanted a copy. So I tried to send it to her home in rural Idaho by fax, on her phone line. Further communications did not patch the blunder in mania.
Another call was to Queen Julianne at The Hague. It was made from a pay phone at a restaurant on the spur of the moment to wish her happy birthday around May Day. I recalled the piece of trivia from my visit there ten or fifteen years earlier, in 1974. When I called, I woke somebody in the middle of night with my greeting. It could have been the queen herself, since my touch becomes magical in illness.
The calls have been costly in terms of the closest relationships.
There was an especially supportive friend in Boston whom I had known ever since she and her family trailed me in a raft on a later Middle Fork journey. I visited them, and they rode in my van on the first Other Side of Texas tour, bringing their friends for my interpretation of the state.
She was an authority on Indians, having sent me the last set of her early books, and she encouraged me as a writer.
Then her husband languished with cancer, eventually dying. He was a pioneer in computers for the Navy.
His death changed her. We rarely wrote.
I called during an episode. The only words I remember, that I thought were said, were hers: "You should be in the street." I can't imagine what provoked that, or the return of an unopened letter I wrote from Rusk.
It was a tremendous loss to sever communications after twenty years. Why these people had driven me to Walden Pond and invited me to Beaver Creek, Colorado, to ski with them and their daughter. They had hosted dinners for me and their local friends. Some in our party had skinny-dipped on a hike up the Presidential Range in New Hampshire. We were personal.
My feeding frenzies with a telephone have cast a net of uncertainty over others as well.
I was never sure if I got through to Jackie (not her real name) at The New York Times more than once. She worked on the copy desk at The Post circa '70 and made us proud with her rise at The Times, as an editor listed in the mast. But I didn't contact her now except when manic.
That was the pattern with Eileen (not her real name), too. She was the one girl friend that my parents thought I should marry. We skied and played tennis evenly matched, but passion was absent. We went our separate ways—until I started phoning her during episodes. She took the calls good-naturedly, and in our last conversation said she was selling rings, not that I would be a good customer.
A royal telephone blitz focused on international operators. Never before having called abroad from home, I seemed to have a battalion of operators at my command. I fantasized that a newspaper office friend was herself Princess Di and I Prince Charles. We were a big society item on both sides of the Atlantic and at the same time wore reporters' hats as we covered a story breaking world-wide. It doesn't make a lot of sense, and never did. But the waking dream cost me a $650 phone bill.
AT&T wanted its money when I came back to earth.

Chapter 16

In Death's Shadow

IT WAS NEAR TWO Y E A R S that I watched life slip away from the homestead like dying embers in the night. My father was first to go, at eighty-five, from complications of Parkinson's disease. We moved him to a nursing home after many restless nights, and in October 1997 we buried him in his hometown, among the pink granite and limestone of the Hill Country.
My mother's time for interment in the family plot was months later. She too spent her last days in a Beaumont nursing home, suffering the pain of ovarian cancer, and was eighty-five.

As AN ONLY CHILD, I called her Mama. She had not wanted the end for either to come like this, in a nursing home. She fretted when my dad was admitted ahead of her and when he asked, "Is this our home now?" But then, as in her own case, she relied on the wisdom of doctors, who said good care would be difficult at home. Oh, she didn't let go. She drove to his "home" each morning and stayed the whole day, straightening over him the sheets he tossed off and feeding him. It was the type of care a thin staff could not devote much time to. And she would faithfully ask that the attendants put my dad in a wheelchair for a daily push through the halls, and when I was along, to the patient garden. This care for her husband of sixty-one years was a proud achievement. "I'm glad I lived long enough," she said.
This is not to say she lived in a serene state. When her memory faltered after Daddy's funeral, I took her to a geriatric psychiatrist who, based on a brief examination, said she had dementia, a deterioration of the brain. He recommended assisted living. She balked. Seeking further guidance, I wrote details of her conduct to my psychiatrist, asking what to do. He urged a locked-up unit for life, saying I could find a judge to order it. I balked. There was plenty of light in her yet.
Yes, there was the verbal abuse. She would, for example, thrash me daily for not using the car visor that blocked my vision. No amount of explaining quieted her. But to the doctor and a friend who associated this with dementia I replied, "If that's dementia, she's had it all her life."
In August 1998 her primary physician gave me a choice to make for my mother, chemotherapy or a hysterectomy with chemotherapy. I elected the operation, but local surgeons would not perform it because of the high risk. So I took her to Houston to see an acclaimed doctor who examined her and said he would operate. However, her doctor back home researched things further and said the operation would "destroy" her. I took that to mean insurmountable pain.
Chemotherapy was started on the glowing recommendation of a specialist, and it left her so dazed with nausea and temperature fluctuations that the primary physician stopped the treatment immediately. There were these irrefutable aftershocks: She was permanently weakened, and death was imminent.
Thus began her nursing home residency. She was free to come and go as she pleased, although we never tried an overnight excursion after the trip to Houston, where pampered care in a luxury hotel with gourmet room service was lost to the occasion. We instead made short forays, not all pleasant. When lunch was Italian, and I ordered Italian soup, she reprimanded me repeatedly. "But I wanted soup," I protested. Warmer like the fall afternoon was the kind suggestion of a nurse that I take her for ice cream. We both enjoyed the soft cones.
We watched the Astros playoffs in her room long after others were asleep. I made a point of it, and she maintained interest despite knowing her time at the plate was about up. She had asked, "How long do I have to live?"
"About six months," I said.
"You shouldn't have told me," she said.
We celebrated Christmas as she weakened. The Novaks, her best friends, brought a ham dinner and we took her home for the final time. It was a traditional setting, except I took her in the bedroom to see a snow scene on the computer, and she couldn't see. She would soon close her eyes to her failing sight.
There were tears. One of the nurses reported she had them all crying when she expressed sadness that she had but me to be with her in death. "Some don't have one," the nurse told her. The only tears I saw were the last time I brought her pal Chica, a Boston terrier, to the nursing home. The little dog jumped on her bed. I thought she was hurting her legs. But my mother shook me off, and she was crying. She hadn't had a pet as a child, and Chica in a string of dogs I owned came closest to being hers.
One day Barbara McNeill, who was a Gordon when I knew her growing up in First Christian Church, invited me out for a welcome break A registered nurse, she had labored to abort her mother's fatal complication in a hospital room across the hall from my mother's.
Barbara and her husband Alan, a lawyer, took coffee drinking as seriously as I did, and on a sunny and mild January day, we sipped away in their home. Shortly a phone call came for help in driving a herd of cattle from one pasture to another. I asked Barbara why the move. She explained, "It's a male thing."
The task was done, and shortly thereafter Alan ventured that they should name the newborn in the herd, a rambunctious red male, Carlton, after me. With a namesake I recommended they run a tab at the feed store on me.
Soon after, my mother perked up a bit when told about the calf, having been a farm girl. Successive days later she would ask, "How's the little calf?"
Death came in the night when I wasn't there. The nurse said her blue feet forecast her end, but at 10 p.m. I went for sleep, leaving a sitter on watch. At 2 a.m. I got a call reporting her heavy breathing, a sign before she would go. I hurried. "She's gone," the nurse said as I entered. The sitter volunteered that "she went in her sleep."
My mother had worried that no one would come to her services. She was a homemaker and sparingly a community volunteer. Most of her friends were dead. Yet fifty showed up at her visitation, and another twenty at a graveside rite in a remote corner of the state. A casket spray with eight dozen red roses was placed by her son.







Chapter 17

Home

"AND NOW HE is HOME, "I intoned over the freshly dug grave of my father.
"To this favored place where he swam as a boy, planting bare feet and swinging out into natural pools of spring-fed creeks and rivers.
"To the live oaks and cedar breaks he tramped for deer.
"He is home in late October when there is a hard clarity to the air, a softer glow of the sun on pink Texas granite of a billion years, and limestone ledges.
"He is back home with family, in their spiritual home of Lampasas. His brothers are or will be buried here, and his parents and grandparents."

AND THEN MY WORDS gave way to his words in a memoir he wrote, The Little Red Flag, about his first job in this community he loved, a rite of passage into adulthood.
"When in a group of people and the conversation was about sports, I have attempted to tell about the little red flag. I only wanted to tell about its usage in golf in the middle and late years of the twenties. These persons would only look at me in disbelief or make some remark to cause me to feel that I wasn't telling a true story.
"The golf course consisted of nine holes built about two miles from town on the rolling grass plains dotted here and there with live oak trees and some brush thickets. The drainage of this course was in the middle, which we called washed out gullies. Most of the land of this nature around Lampasas was used to graze sheep because native grass and weeds grew abundantly.
"After thirty-five years each hole is a distinct picture in my mind. As the saying goes, 'I ran my legs off on this golf course for about three years using the little red flag. I was only a boy on his first job
and was closely associated with men for the first time, most of whom operated businesses in this small town of a population of 2,000. By this close association I knew how each would play each hole.
"The first hole was a par four, about 315 yards. The fairways on this hole and all other holes were mowed with a weed sowing machine which left about four to six inches of grass and weeds. The rough was sometimes mowed to about eight or twelve inches, but most of the time was higher than that. A short slice to the right on this first hole would mean a lost ball in a thicket of grass and bushes. The approach shot to the green could easily go outside by rolling under a barbed wire fence just back of the green. All greens were made out of sand and treated with oil. All were enclosed with a mound of dirt about ten inches high.
"The number two hole was about 535 yards and par five. There was a barbed wire fence all the way down the right hand side and was out of bounds when you hit the ball over it. The number three hole was about 170 yards and par three, but in order to make a correct shot you had to shoot over a corner that consisted of two barbed wire fences coming together and forming a space to hit across of about 50 yards, which was out of bounds.
"All caddies hated the barbed wire because that meant torn cloths and flesh, lost balls, and an unhappy golfer.
"The number six hole was about 440 yards and par four. On the left hand side of the fairway about 150 yards out were very tall live oak trees. It was reported that a golfer hit a ball that knocked a crow out of the very top and killed it. On the right of this hole was a very thick thicket of oak trees of all sizes. Back of the green was a very large mesquite tree.
"The number seven hole was about 350 yards and par four. On the right side of the fairway it was very rocky and there was an oak thicket. This fairway and the number eight fairway joined each other and the gullies and drainage I spoke of a while ago was part of these two fairways. The number nine hole was about 390 yards and par four. There was a row of large oak trees that crossed nearly all of this fairway about 175 yards away and most all of the golfers tried to shoot to the left because the number two fairway joined the number nine. But there was a lot of balls that hit in the top of the large oak.
"I know you are wondering how a little red flag could cause me to remember each of these holes. I was told one day that I could make some money if I went out to the golf course and learned how to caddie. This I did but it was a very hard and trying experience. The definition in Webster's dictionary of a caddie is, 'a lad who carries golf clubs.' This definition is incorrect as far as this golf course in its use of a caddie. First I learned that every caddie had about fifteen little red flags of his own. Next I learned that every twosome, threesome, or foursome had a preference for a certain caddie. Since I was only fourteen, most of the caddies were older and more experienced. I then learned that there were a lot more caddies than needed.
"No one wanted a beginner because a beginner lost balls, since there was definitely an art in seeing balls in the air, listening for them to hit the ground, and seeing them on their first bounce before the weeds and grass could hide them from sight. Furthermore, it appeared, to succeed one had to conquer competition and personalities. As I learned later, this was done by patience, mastery, and determination to be good at your first job.
"So I went home and told my mother I needed fifteen little red flags. I had seen flags of different sizes and attached to the wire of a clothes hanger in some crude fashion. I told her that some of the boys had cut strips of red cheese cloth and attached them to the wire by bending it close together. I know now what was going through her mind. If you are going to have a flag, make it look like one. She bought enough red cotton cloth to make fifteen red flags of a size of three by four inches. She hemmed them all the way around but left a wider hem to slide the wire through on one end. Then I bent a small loop at the top of the flag and closed it tight with part of the flag covering the loop. Then to make sure it wouldn't slip off, she sewed it some more with needle and red thread around this loop. Then I took them down to Payne's Bicycle Shop and they made a sharp point on the other end so that it would stick in the ground easy.
"The next day I left for the golf course a proud little boy. Our pastor and neighbor, the Rev. Lawrence Williams, gave me a ride, as would become his custom, and that put me one up on many other caddies. But I was later disappointed on that and many days to come for I couldn't land a job.
"Finally, I caught on. I paired up with an older, more experienced caddie to learn the basic steps. Such was the practice that most foursomes had two caddies if they were not good players or if they did not have enough confidence in just one caddie.
"But here is the part no one believes and which proves Webster wrong.
"You would stand out in front of a twosome, threesome, or foursome about 175 yards on all holes of par four and par five for the first shot. As each one would hit their ball you were supposed to watch it and run stick a flag by it The player could seldom see the ball in the fairway and never could see it or seldom find it in the rough if the red flag wasn't by the ball. If it was a par three hole you stood close to the green. On the second shot of a par four and par five hole you stood within twenty-five yards of the green. You were supposed to flag every ball before the next golfer shot and retrieve if at all possible all balls over the barbed-wire fence. This was quite a task and was done by only the best of caddies.
"As I got better and more confidence in myself, I would go down and ask Dr. Fariss, a dentist, for a job that day so I would at least have one to caddie for and most of the time he would tell the others he had a caddie already hired for them also. This is the way I got ahead of the other caddies before the players reached the golf course.
"Dr. Fariss usually played with Dr. Dickinson, another dentist, and Dr. Willerson, an MD. Their average score for nine holes was between forty-three and fifty, but sometimes Dr. Fariss would break forty since his drives were pretty accurate and went about 225 yards.
"The more you caddied for the same players the easier it was, because you knew just about how high the ball would get off of the ground and which way it would go. I practiced running by a ball, and holding the flag on the end of the small loop, I could stick it close to the ball by throwing it instead of stooping down. Of course, I would miss quite often and then have to return and stick the flag up.
"Wooden tees were used in the fairways since the ground and grass were not in condition to hit from. These tees were usually pushed in a small slit in a piece of rubber cut from a tire inner tube so that you could retrieve them easily and not lose them.
"Thanks, however, to the little red flag, I earned 25 cents a player and a lesson about determination."







Chapter 18

The Storyteller

MY     GRANDFATHER,     MY     FATHER'S     FATHER,was a wellspring of storytelling. He  visited from his San Angelo home by train in my last years at home in the '50s, and my dad had the foresight to record these true tales from a life that stretched from 1873 to 1969, or ninety-five years.
In these reminiscences, Granddaddy (P. E. Leatherwood—he. went by his initials) told of "the best sport I ever enjoyed" He said:

WE MOVED OUT ON PATTERSON CREEK, thirteen miles north of Lampasas. The country was open, didn't have many wire fences. And let it come a rainy time or a time we couldn't work, we'd get out on the horses with a greyhound. It would take right in after a jackrabbit, and all the other dogs in the community would join in, too. And these common dogs acted as shortstop. They'd see the greyhound bringing the rabbit around in a circle and cut across and confuse the rabbit. Then the greyhound would pick him up.
"So one day I was out hunting with my uncles, and we jumped a rabbit and took after it. Their horses ran away with them and went over the hill, and the greyhound routed the rabbit back toward me. So I got right in behind them and rode standing up in my stirrups whipping the horse on both shoulders with my old hat and yelling at the top of my voice.
"And the greyhound was just nipping at that rabbit at every jump, and finally it caught it.
"We couldn't catch more than two, and we would catch the second one and quit because the greyhound was run down."
Had I been keen on genealogy in my youth, I would have appreciated more, and harvested more, from this fertile mind.
Said he, "My grandmother and grandfather Leatherwood came from South Carolina. My mother's mother was Grandma Jones. She was a school girl with my grandmother Leatherwood—my two grandmothers were schoolchildren together. They came from South Carolina to Alabama, and then the Leatherwoods lived over in Mississippi awhile and went back to Alabama. Then they came to Texas.
"My grandfather moved up near Liberty Hill and bought a tract of land to farm. My father had just become of age and helped him grub out the farm, then he went back to marry my mother. When he got back to Alabama, my grandmother Jones felt like it was a breaking up of them for mother to leave them. So he said, 'All of you get ready and go to Texas with us.' They came to Texas and settled in Bastrop County, where I was born August 21,1873."
His father died when he was six months old, and his mother, grandmother and two uncles moved up near Liberty Hill near his grandfather Leatherwood before all moved to Lampasas. His mother died when he was eight, leaving him an orphan in the care of his maternal grandmother.
He attended boarding school at sixteen.
"It was a co-ed school and the boys had a long row of rooms called the Sheep Shed, and the girls had a dormitory, a two-story building with a big dining room. The boys and girls got their meals together. And we had a teacher at each long table.
"One morning for breakfast we were served oatmeal. One of the boys kept picking at the bowl of oatmeal, and the teacher said, 'Is something the matter with your oatmeal?' And the boy said, 'Look here what it is.'
"It was a whole mouse cooked in it."
The patriarch of the Leatherwoods told of his personal work history, which spanned the Depression. He began work at seventeen and before long, after returning from a fishing trip, landed his job for the next twenty-five years, which was bookkeeper at Barnes and Manuel, a hardware store in Lampasas.
"I resigned to take the postmastership of Lampasas," he said.
He held the postmaster position from 1920-1922. There are family accounts that this job ended with difficulties. But a combing of newspapers and postal records do not support this.
Maybe my mother knew something more. She and her father-in-law indulged in the social grace of coffee in the kitchen long after my dad, an early riser, and I had gone to bed. With each visit she ushered him into our household with much honor and special thanksgiving.
He eventually worked for Standard Hide and Fur Co. in Dallas, leaving his wife Lou and five children in Lampasas for another ten years, a place they recalled with fondness. However, "The Depression came on, and the fur and wool business closed up, so we went to San Angelo to live in 1932 and I had a hard time getting started again. I took most any little job I could get."
Finally drifting into stability, he retired at eighty-one after eleven years at Findlater Hardware Co. in San Angelo. His good health and nimbleness of mind permitted him to do income tax returns for clients into his 90s. How alert was he at the end? He could recite in order of service the full names of all the presidents of the United States.
It was not until his death bed that I learned of our kindred spirit. Granddaddy told of turn-of-the-century camping trips by wagon to Fall Creek Falls on the Colorado River of Texas. The campers included school teachers and other professionals from Lampasas; a cook tent separated the tents of men and women.
It was obvious he had a vision for me. His gifts included a leather briefcase and a handsomely bound world atlas, both of which I held onto despite the coming of attaché cases and changes in national boundaries.
The Leatherwoods were united through marriage with the George W. Porters of Troy, Texas, when my parents exchanged vows on September 5, 1936. The honeymooners spent that Labor Day weekend at the Hotel Wooten in Abilene.
My mother kept the menu for their Sunday dinner. I don't know the choices made, but whatever they were, it was a splendid feast that might have included fresh Galveston shrimp, chicken okra soup (my mother loved okra), broiled fresh Alaskan salmon with cucumber slaw, three vegetables, lettuce and tomato salad, fresh Elberta peach tart and buttermilk—all for 75 cents.
There were also five children in the Porter family. All the children in both families would marry, but eight would have an only child. The generation of my aunts and uncles experienced both the Depression and World War II—and beget three more generations.
The patriarch of the Porter family, George, was diagnosed with heart disease in 1928, and the farm chores fell to Mida, the wife, and the children. None of the offspring stayed to tend the land when they became adults, moving into teaching, oil, and homemaking.
Of this family's genealogy, there is this proud belief that Mida Nelson was descended from Thomas Nelson, a signer of the Declaration of Independence.

Journey to the Edge of Texas Chapter 11



Doctor's Heat

     PETROU BEGAN THE NEXT MORNING with Leatherwood's doctor back on the stand.
"Dr. Blackburn, you wrote Mr. Leatherwood a letter in which you stated that you remained cautiously optimistic that he can be gainfully employed; is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"And can you tell us why you feel that way?"
"That letter was written at a point after he had made some substantial gains during the previous year in terms of schooling, work with the Texas Rehabilitation Commission, and was beginning to focus."
"Dr. Blackburn, if Carl Leatherwood is accommodated for his illness, is there any reason he cannot resume his lifelong occupation of being a journalist?"
"There would be no reason. Perhaps anyway, I'm not sure that any accommodation is required for him to be able to proceed with his life and be gainfully employed again."
"I have no further questions," Petrou said.
The court: "Cross-examination."
Bounds came forward.

GOOD    MORNING,     DR.     BLACKBURN.   I've put in front of you four of defendant's exhibits, which are records from your files regarding Mr. Leatherwood. Now, you testified that you first examined him in December of 1988; is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"I would like for you to turn to page 79 in Exhibit 3, a record of Gayle Goodman, a social worker. Would you please read for me the second paragraph under 'Presenting Problem'?"
"There is a significant discrepancy between the patient's account of the events preceding the commitment and that of the father and Mr. Gary Fortenberry."
"And the next four sentences, please?"
"'The patient denied any emotional difficulties warranting the extreme measure of commitment. He only went so far as to describe himself as eccentric. He expressed bewilderment at the concern and attempt of family and friends to put him in the hospital. He described their efforts as insensitive and repeatedly stated that he wished only to live a peaceful life.'"
"Mr. Leatherwood often referred to people who tried to get him into the hospital as insensitive, didn't he?"
"I don't know."
"You never heard him use that term before?"
"I don't know that he often—that he often referred to people as insensitive. I've heard that at least once or twice, but I can't say often."
"Okay. There's been testimony about Mr. Leatherwood's episode in the fall of 1988. This hospitalization began on December the 8th; is that correct?"
"That's correct. That's when I first saw him."
"At what point does a person become disorganized or delusional or lose their judgment in the midst of an episode?"
"That's an impossible question. Anything can happen, I suppose, at any point. It's not an all or none—psychosis is not like a light switch turning off and on. One's judgment and rationality waxes and wanes."
"Mr. Leatherwood experienced a severe psychosis in 1988, did he not?"
"He did have a severe episode of psychosis, yes, or severe psychotic episode."
"Now, there's been testimony that Mr. Leatherwood went into his employer, The Houston Post, and resigned his employment in somewhere around December 1st of 1988, or were you aware of that?"
"I knew that he had tendered a resignation."
"Would you please read for me the last paragraph on that page 79?"
"Okay. 'The patient indicated that he had travelled to the East Coast in October and suddenly went to the Southwest after Thanksgiving. He states that he wished to relocate to Santa Fe, New Mexico. Upon his return to Houston, he tendered his resignation.'"
"Isn't it true, Dr. Blackburn, that you knew that when Mr. Leatherwood returned to work in January of 1989, that that was only on a conditional basis for a couple of months so that Mr. Leatherwood could earn a little bit of money and have an opportunity to look for another job?"
"That is not a strange idea to me. I heard that statement. He was —my understanding is that he was attempting to get himself reinstated, that he was—felt like that his tendering the resignation, which apparently did occur at a point when he was rather irrational, was not either his wish or in his best interest."
"Even though he had decided to relocate and had some complaints about his employer?"
"Well, he also decided a lot of other things that—such as to take a hotel room and continue traveling and accumulated bills in a hotel room when he was not in the city and was doing many things that were irrational in at least part of his illness process."
"Isn't it true that you in fact had a telephone conversation with Ernie Williamson in which he told you that he was going to allow Carl to come back just for a couple of months so that he could earn some money and look for a new job and you told Mr. Blackburn—I mean, you told Mr. Williamson that you felt that was extremely humane and generous of The Houston Post?"
"I had a conversation with Mr. Williamson. The detail of your words, I do not recall. The gist of the conversation in my memory was that Mr. Williamson was supportive of Carlton coming back, was hopeful to get him back, but felt that the powers that be were not going to support that but that he was able at least temporarily to arrange some employment. So part of what you're saying is my recollection too."
"But if Mr. Williamson were to testify that that's what you told him, you couldn't dispute that, could you?"
"No, I couldn't dispute it. I would say I don't remember all of those details."
"But the bottom line is, you don't remember?"
Petrou: "Objection, Your Honor. The witness has answered that he does remember certain details." ' The court: "Overrule the objection."
"Please, turn to page 85. Is this your admission report?"
"That's correct. This would have been my first dictation at the time the patient came into the hospital."
"At the time that you read—I mean, the time that you dictated this report, you had read the five or six pages that had been prepared by the social worker; is that correct?"
"That's not correct. This would have been dictated the day or the day following his admission, and the social worker's detailed history would not have been available to me for probably a week."
"Would you read for me and the Court the two sentences at the beginning of the paragraph about 'Diagnostic Impression'?"
"The effect was mildly volatile. Irritability and in particular anger about being hospitalized against his will was manifest."
Over on page 87. The first line of your proposed treatment plan. Read it, please."
"Hospitalized for observation and protection."
"Who were you protecting with this hospitalization?"
"I was protecting the patient in my estimation."
"Now, at some point you did read the report of Ms. Goodman, the social worker?"
"That's correct."
"Did it present any kind of surprises to you?"
"There was new information in terms of history that I had not acquired. No major surprises."
"Did you find that your conversations with Mr. Leatherwood, his stories regarding events, were different from the report that you read with Ms. Goodman?"
"There were differences."
"Would you turn to page 80. At what point did you make your determination that Mr. Leatherwood had been disabled by this episode for approximately a month before his termination—I mean, before his admittance to the hospital?"
"I don't have any recollection."
"Okay. Would you please read the first sentence in the third paragraph."
"The parents and Mr. Fortenberry's account of these events present a picture of the patient's emotional deterioration since early October."
"So sometime within the first few days of Mr. Leatherwood's hospitalization, you had indication that his episode had actually begun some two months before his admittance; wouldn't that be correct?"
"That's correct."
"Would you, please, read the first two sentences of the next paragraph for the Court?"
"The parents report a confusing situation around Thanksgiving in which the patient invited them to Houston for the holiday and then denied knowledge of the plan when they arrived. He refused to transport them upon their arrival, although he met them for dinner. They reported that he acted inappropriately, was unkempt, and spoke loudly at the restaurant.
"When he suddenly left for the West Coast after Thanksgiving, he called the parents often but refused to tell them of his whereabouts?"
"That's fine. Is it normal for a person who experiences episodes such as Mr. Leatherwood to act inappropriately, to be unkempt, and to speak loudly?"
"It's certainly something that is often reported. These are the type of things that lead one to a diagnosis of manic depressive illness. A manic episode."
"And Mr. Leatherwood himself does exhibit these types of symptoms when he gets into a manic episode, does he not?"
"That's correct."
"Would you please read the second sentence of the fifth paragraph on page 81?"
"According to the parents, they had been in contact with the patient's supervisors at The Houston Post in an effort to track the patient's whereabouts."
"So you had an indication on reading those notes The Post as well as the—the people from The Post as well as the patient's parents as well as Mr. Fortenberry and his girl friend had all been involved in trying to get Mr. Leatherwood to go to the hospital; is that correct?"
"There's certainly some involvement in their efforts to gather information."
"You testified yesterday that outside stresses often affect a person with bipolar disorder and can cause the reoccurrence of episodes: Is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"Is the condition of personal relationships also an outside stress that can cause recurrence of episodes?"
"Certainly."
"Would you turn to page 83 and read the first two sentence of the third paragraph?"
"The patient's relationship with his parents is not good. He states that he has been unsuccessful in breaking the ties with them."
"Isn't it true that you have seen a pattern in Mr. Leatherwood's experiences in his episodes, and contact with his parents or arguments with his parents have contributed to recurrence of his episodes?"
"That's one of the circumstances that have been associated with the recurrence of his episodes. There are many elements of stress. No one particular stress that I would attribute, I would not say that employment stresses are the only stress this gentleman has had, nor would I say that relationship stresses are the only stresses that have been important in terms of his illness."
"So all of these relationships have equal bearing on his psychological well-being?"
"I would not say equal, necessarily. They all have varying degrees of bearing, yes."
"Were you seeing Mr. Leatherwood on a regular basis from his hospitalization in October through his hospitalization in June of 1989?"
"Approximately monthly, perhaps biweekly initially."
"I said hospitalization in October but I meant December of '88."
"That's what I understood you to mean."
"Would you turn to page 72? The third paragraph under 'History of Present Illness.' Begin with the second sentence."
"Okay. 'The patient remains on a regiment of lithium carbonate, 600 milligrams twice daily. To return to work. He had biweekly office appointments through May 9th. Between that time and an office visit on 6/1/89, a change occurred. Telephone contacts from the patient's girl friend and employer indicated that emotional behavioral change.
"The girl friend learned of changes after the patient went on a driving trip with his aged parents. The parents had also been aware of substantial emotional change in the patient."
"Well, how much credence do you put in telephone calls that you receive from family and friends and coworkers of your patients when they call you to discuss the possibilities of emotional changes?"
"All depends on the circumstance and the informants. I try to listen."
"In this particular case, you had telephone calls from his girl friend and from Mr. Williamson possibly at The Post or at least someone at his employer indicating that his mood had changed and his behavior had changed; is that true?"
"Uh-huh, yes."
"Did you not act on any of those phone calls?"
"J would have taken action. I don't remember the specific nature. I think it would have been that the patient was to see me and, in fact, he did see me at some point, at which time I made some adjustment in medication."
"Would that have been the visit on 6/1/89 that you made the—"
"I suspect so. I don't remember the precise details of the timing."
"Do you ever when you get conversation—get calls like this, do you ever take the time to call your patients and check with them if they don't come in?"
"I do on some occasions. That's not a customary practice, but I certainly support the individuals coming in for appointments when something is changing so that we can evaluate our phone conversation or adjust medication. As a last resort, hospitalization would be something that would be considered."
"Would you please read the next little paragraph and then the first three sentences in the paragraph after that."
"'The patient had uncharacteristically left the girl friend at a Hill Country festival. He was appearing preoccupied and easily distracted.'"
"Continue."
"'At work, hyperactivity and impaired concentration with workers was reported. The patient was reported to be unable to sit down. He was spending more time talking with other people.'"
"Thank you. These things had been reported to you by his girl friend and by his—people at his employment, correct?"
"That's correct."
"What else are these people supposed to do? If they have contacted you, told you that they've got a problem, how much further are they supposed to go? Are they supposed to bodily restrain Mr. Leatherwood and bring him to your office?"
"I don't have a particular opinion about that. This information is about a hospitalization that occurred as a result of this information and these changes. On this occasion the patient was hospitalized, voluntarily, treatment was modified and that was good. I would have no complaints about anybody at this time in the picture."
"So the types of accommodation that you're talking about are what these people have been doing; is that correct? They have been noticing behavioral change, trying to get him to go see a doctor, and reporting that?"
"Some people, certainly some people have been doing this very effectively."
"You don't think it's the responsibility of every person who comes into contact with Mr. Leatherwood to do these kinds of things."
"Certainly not."
"Are there certain cases of bipolar disorder such as Mr. Leatherwood's, where he will experience an episode even if he is taking his medication religiously?"
"Yes."
"Now, following Mr. Leatherwood's discharge in June of 1989, you wrote another letter, this time to Mr. Janiga, his employer at The Post, is that correct?"
"That's correct. What page?"
"Page 67. In that letter, you simply state in your opinion he can resume his usual work activity immediately; is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"In a February letter, you discussed the continuation of treatment of outpatient therapy. You don't discuss that in this June '89 letter. Why is that?"
"I don't know. I mean there were certainly plans for continuing outpatient treatment, but I didn't include that in the letter because of the—the letter was basically to say that in my opinion, the patient could return to work."
"It was your opinion on June 29,1989, that Mr. Leatherwood was perfectly capable of returning to work?"
"That's correct."
"This was to return to work in his usual occupation as a copy writer for The Houston Post, is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"Had you ever spoken to anyone at The Post about what Mr. Leatherwood's job duties and functions on a daily basis were?"
"Not in great detail. That would have been some of, I think, the communication with Mr. Williamson some months before; but I did not pursue that nor do I have any sufficient understanding of the business to have understood what I was told if someone had told me all of that."
"You didn't think it was important for you to know what his usual work activity consisted of before you released him to return to that activity?"
"That's more or less correct, because I did not see compromise of his mental function being such that he could not perform the jobs that he was accustomed to performing. I felt like he had not performed his work well when he was psychotic. When he was nonpsychotic, he could do his work satisfactorily, that was my sense. So the nature of the job at that point was not something I was concerned about."
"Did you have an occasion to write a letter on August 11 of 1989 regarding Mr. Blackburn's health and his ability to perform his job?"
"Mr. Leatherwood's health and—"
"Ability."
"Yes."
"Ability to perform his job?"
"In August."
"I believe it's on page 66."
"August 11, yes."
"This letter is stated 'To whom it may concern;' correct?"
"That's correct."
"I think that Mr. Leatherwood needed the letter in terms at this point in beginning to look at future employment. This was after he had been terminated. There no doubt may have also been some need from this with respect to his attorney. This was a multipurpose letter to document, basically, the status at that point."
"There's been testimony that Mr. Leatherwood was terminated effective July the 12th in a letter dated July the 25th. This letter was written on August llth. And in fact, at about that time, Mr. Leatherwood was attempting to get long-term disability benefits as well as Social Security disability benefits; is that correct?"
"That is likely, correct. I don't recollect the precise dates on the nature of the issues with regard to long-term. I know that those were all relevant, but I was not keeping track of the precise nature of those."
"But, in fact, you wrote letters and filled out reports and sent medical documentation to both the long-term disability carrier and the Social Security administration; is that correct?"
"I'm sure that's true."
"That was in an attempt to facilitate Mr. Leatherwood's obtaining benefits from both of those sources?"
"That's correct."
"Now, you wrote the letter on June 29 saying that, in your opinion, he could resume his usual work activity. On August 11, you wrote this letter."
"Uh-huh."
"In paragraph two, the second sentence says, 'Because of these periods of fluctuation in his emotional stability, Mr. Leatherwood may not be able to work with any continuity in his chosen profession or perhaps any other profession.'"
"Uh-huh."
"What had occurred between June 29 and August 11 to change your position and your opinions so dramatically? He had not had another episode, had he?"
Petrou: "Objection. One question at a time if you would, please."
The court: "Overrule the objection. Overrule the objection."
"The change—several changes. It was during that time that the patient was terminated from his employment, and his mood had substantially changed. He was in this period more depressed, he was not in a manic episode, he was not out of control, he did not require hospitalization but his emotional state was substantially different. His ability in my judgment to pursue some kind of work at that point was substantially less than it had been at the time, both times, after hospital treatment in December '88 and in June '89.
"He chronically responded as people often do when they're in manic episodes. The response—the treatment when they're more depressed—is often slower. But that was just the fact that his clinical condition had changed in my judgment from June until August."
"In that six-month period, how many times had you actually seen Mr. Leatherwood for visits?"
"From June to August, it wasn't six months."
"I mean, six-week period. I apologize."
"I had probably seen him only a couple of times. I don't remember the dates of outpatient appointments, but I would have seen him within several weeks of his hospitalization and then approximately monthly, maybe some extra ones. But I would have had very little contact, but it doesn't take a lot of contact if a person's mood is substantially different and if circumstances are substantially different.
"At this point when I was writing this letter, the patient was fearing destitution. He was unemployed, he did not have plans for employment, he had his bills to pay, et cetera. He was quite concerned and he was depressed and that's reflected, I think, in this."
"Had you altered Mr. Leatherwood's medication at any time in that six week period?”
"I don't remember a change at that point."
"In fact, you did not alter his medication during that period. You did not alter his medication?"
"I said I don't recall altering it during that time."
"He had not been hospitalized during this six-week period either, had he?"
"No."
"And it's your testimony that you probably saw him maybe twice in that six-week period?"
"That would be reasonable. I have no idea."
"Did you have any conversation or telephone conversations or contacts from his parents or his girl friend or had you had any conversation with anyone from The Post in that six-week period?"
"I don't recall any other communication at that time."
"At the bottom of that middle paragraph, you go on to say, 'The manic phases have occurred sporadically in spite of his use of maintenance medication.'"
"Uh-huh."
"'Because of these unpredictable episodes and the necessity of hospitalization, I cannot say that Mr. Leatherwood would be able to perform the material duties of his occupation with a reasonable continuity.'"
"We're talking again about his usual work activity or the material duties of his occupation which you've testified you legally never found out exactly what that was, did you?"
"That's correct. I knew only that they were editorial in nature. And the most important thing from that perspective was that he had performed these duties as for as I understood reasonably well for nineteen or twenty years, and I thought he could do that again."
"Would you read the last paragraph of that letter, please?"
"'From having evaluated and treated Mr. Leatherwood, I know that his education, training, and experience have all been in the newspaper-field as an editor of some type. As this is his current occupation, and as I have already stated, he's disabled with respect to its performance. It follows that he would likely be disabled with respect to similar occupations to which he would be suited by virtue of training and experience."
"So what I've done, I'm prognosticating as far as when the patient is substantially down, he's not manic, he still has the same illness. And we're never very good at prognosticating. As a matter of fact, he has probably done better in terms of his return to ability to function cognitively than I thought he might at this particular time."
"In fact, you weren't able to actually prognosticate about his condition from—approximately month to month; is that correct?"
"I don't remember a change at that point."
"In fact, you did not alter his medication during that period. You did not alter his medication?"
"I said I don't recall altering it during that time."
"He had not been hospitalized during this six-week period either, had he?"
"No."
"And it's your testimony that you probably saw him maybe twice in that six-week period?""
"That would be reasonable. I have no idea."
"Did you have any conversation or telephone conversations or contacts from his parents or his girl friend or had you had any conversation with anyone from The Post in that six-week period?"
"I don't recall any other communication at that time."
"At the bottom of that middle paragraph, you go on to say, 'The manic phases have occurred sporadically in spite of his use of maintenance medication.'"
"Uh-huh."
"'Because of these unpredictable episodes and the necessity of hospitalization, I cannot say that Mr. Leatherwood would be able to perform the material duties of his occupation with a reasonable continuity.'"
"We're talking again about his usual work activity or the material duties of his occupation which you've testified you legally never found out exactly what that was, did you?"
"That's correct. I knew only that they were editorial in nature. And the most important thing from that perspective was that he had performed these duties as far as I understood reasonably well for nineteen or twenty years, and I thought he could do that again."
"Would you read the last paragraph of that letter, please?"
"'From having evaluated and treated Mr. Leatherwood, I know that his education, training, and experience have all been in the newspaper-field as an editor of some type. As this is his current occupation, and as I have already stated, he's disabled with respect to its performance. It follows that he would likely be disabled with respect to similar occupations to which he would be suited by virtue of training and experience."
"So what I've done, I'm prognosticating as far as when the patient is substantially down, he's not manic, he still has the same illness. And we're never very good at prognosticating. As a matter of fact, he has probably done better in terms of his return to ability to function cognitively than I thought he might at this particular time."
"In fact, you weren't able to actually prognosticate about his condition from—approximately month to month; is that correct?"
"It has nothing to do with month to month. The fact is, we can never prognosticate that well. In fact, the whole effort of therapy, I guess, is to—when we're pessimistic, to disprove our pessimism with efforts to facilitate the patient functioning better than we think they're able to do."
"Being aware—"
The judge: "I think that this is as good a point as we can find to take a break for a brief mid-morning recess. The jury may retire."

AFTER THE  RECESS, Bounds returns to her tough pursuit "With regard to your statement, Dr. Blackburn, that the loss of Mr. Leatherwood's job had a significant impact on him—I think you said that yesterday as well as today—isn't it true that most people's job and the loss of that job has a significant impact on them?"
"Yes, that's true."
"You stated that your opinion regarding Mr. Leatherwood's prognosis of never being able to return to work has since changed; is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"When did that change?"
"It changed over a period of approximately a year to a year and a half during which time he managed to work with educational opportunities, TRC, completed courses in school making some adjustments, some change from one subject to another and made satisfactory grades and continued to maintain his emotional stability during much of that time in spite of having some subsequent setbacks toward the latter time that I was seeing him. But he certainly demonstrated that he was more able to function than he had been in the summer following his termination or during the summer that he was terminated from employment."
"Please look at Exhibit 4, page 7, which is the first volume of the Standard Insurance Records. Do you have that?"
"Okay. This is an insurance form. I completed it on 8/22/89."
"Which was some 11 days after you had written this letter; is that correct?"
"I suppose so."
"And you put on the bottom of that under prognosis, could you read the remarks to the Court, please?"
"'Based on the recurring clinical psychotic episodes, I believe it unlikely that the patient can return to and sustain his usual or similar work.'"
"Now, you told me that it was your opinion in October—I mean, in August that he could not continue his usual work, correct?"
"That's correct."
"But that it was your opinion on June 29 of 1989 that he could continue in his usual work, correct?"
"That's correct."
"Now, at the top of that page under what's marked No. 3, 'Assessment'?"
"Uh-huh."
"It says, 'Date you recommend patient should stop working.' Did you fill in that date?"
"I have June 24th, I believe."
"You filled that in?"
"Which I think was the day of hospitalization if I'm not mistaken."
"Actually, Mr. Leatherwood was hospitalized from June 19 until June 24 of 1989, correct?"
"Oh, okay."
"So in August, it became your opinion that as of 6/24, which was the date of his discharge, he should quit working; is that correct?"
"I'm not sure. I perhaps didn't read this very well. I don't know, because it's not—my memory is not that I recommended he stop working on that day but that, in fact, he had—was not allowed to go back to work at that date."
"But, in fact, Mr. Leatherwood hadn't been at work since June 1, had he?"
"That sounds correct, yeah, when he went in the hospital. But I think, if my memory serves me correctly, I recommended that he return to work at the end of the hospitalization. And I think I must have been reading this as a typical insurance form that I'm supposed to give the date when the patent last was employed or the last working day. I can't quibble on that. I said effort to return to work January through April '89 failed in spite of ongoing treatment."
"So is it your testimony that in August of 1989 it was your opinion that he could not—that he should stop working on June 24th?"
"It was my—it was in my knowledge that he had not been working during that period of time. I don't want to, I guess, belabor that, but I don't think that I recommended on 6/24 as I gave that date—I filled it out myself, but I don't think I recommended that he stop working at that time. I think I was filling this out as though he had not been working from June until the date in August when I was completing this form."
"So either you didn't—you did recommend that he quit working on June 24th or you didn't read the form; is that what you're saying?"
"I read—if I read the form, I read it incorrectly. That would be my speculation. At least I don't think it's consistent with the letter that I wrote in June if I'm not mistaken."
"It certainly is not—"
"From the discharge summary when he left the hospital, I felt he should return to work."
"Well, I think we're in agreement that it is not consistent with the letter that you sent to The Post on June 29th, aren't we?"
"That's correct, so I must be inconsistent."
"Following these letters that you wrote in August 1989, did you continue to see Mr. Leatherwood on a monthly basis?"
"That's correct."
"And he, in fact, had another manic episode in the fall of 1989, did he not?"
"That's correct."
"Would you turn to page 63 in Exhibit No. 3? Is this a summary that you wrote or dictated?"
"That's correct. It is a summary that I wrote. It appears not to have the day of admission. I must have been confused at that time, too."
"On the next page, page 64 in the lower left-hand corner, there are some numbers?"
"Dictation numbers which would be close to the time of admission."
"Is that the 'D' that says 11/16/89?"
"That's correct. That would be the time it was dictated, and 'T' is the time it was transcribed."
"So this was dictated by you approximately November the 16th of 1989; is that correct?"
"That's correct. Actually it was—the admission was 11/16, the discharge 12/4."
"Okay, good. Looking at page 63, would you read for the court the first sentence under 'History of Present Illness'?"
"'For the past month, the undersigned had been receiving calls from friends and family of patient suggesting another shift in the patient's mood. He was beginning to be talkative and rambling, restless and preoccupied.'"
"Below that a couple of sentences you say, 'On several office visits, the last on October 30th, the patient maintained reasonable emotional control and confirmed his compliance with usual 1200 milligram lithium carbonate daily.'"
"Uh-huh."
"Did you make any efforts at that time, October 30 or those visits, to change his medication?"
"I would have to review the office visit material to say precisely whether I did or didn't at that time. I don't remember."
"But you did not hospitalize him based on your visits with him at that time?"
"That's correct."
"And at the time that you were having these visits and he was maintaining reasonable emotional control, you were also receiving phone calls from family and friends, were you not?"
"I think the phone calls were subsequent. They were after the hospitalization but I don't think they were before—I don't know the precise time that was."
"It states here that for the past month, the undersigned had been receiving calls from family and friends. Your last office visit was on October 30, and hospitalization you just said began November 19. So would that have been—"
"I'm not sure whether the calls came before; they came sometime reasonably close to the time. He subsequently was hospitalized two weeks afterwards. So my assumption from this is the end of two weeks. I had additional contacts, reports that didn't coincide exactly with my observations at the time I saw him."
"But you put in here that for the past month, which we've determined would be a month prior to November 16, you were receiving these calls?"
"Okay."
"Are you saying now that that was incorrect and that was only for the previous two weeks?"
"I don't remember. I don't remember that."
"So this document is really the best evidence of what was occurring at that time; is it not?"
"Probably the document, which I think you have my notations of office visits, would be more likely to show whether I recommended hospitalization or whether I had had phone calls from family or friends before that visit. That doesn't trouble me too much. It may have been—either way, I would not necessarily change the treatment on the basis of the input that I had received. I would be confronting the patient with what I was hearing, looking at what—how he was looking, seeing what he was doing. I might recommend medication change, I might recommend some altered strategy. So I don't quibble about whether I know the significance of whether they called before or after."
"Well, the significance that I see is that you're saying here that for the past month which would be sometime beginning in the middle of October, you've been receiving calls from friends and family of the patient, which by my understanding from your testimony and a prior expert's would be his support group."
"Okay."
"What you're telling me is that saw him and made an assessment and— “
"At that particular—at the time I saw him that he was in reasonable emotional control."
"So you discounted their information or their observations regarding his situation; is that not correct?"
"I don't know that that means I discounted it."
"Well, you obviously decided that you, as the trained professional, knew more than they did, and based upon your personal observation, it was not as serious as they seemed to think it was?"
"I did not call the police—"
"No, I'm not asking you that."
"—lock him up."
The judge: "Pardon me, but don't overlap each other.
"Proceed."

     I'M NOT ASKING You if you called the police. I'm asking you if you changed his medication, and you've obviously stated that you didn't feel at that time on October 30 that it was necessary for him to be hospitalized. Is that what you're saying?"
"All I'm—what I've said is that I don't remember if I changed the medication at this time. I did not hospitalize him at that time. I don't remember whether—I wondered whether this might end up in another hospitalization, what was happening, but I didn't hospitalize him at that time. The patient appeared reasonably stable, and I did not remember anything important to put in the summary at that point."
"What does reasonable stability or reasonable emotional control mean to you?"
"That means that the patient is not having obvious delusions, hallucinations, is not hyperactive, is not loud, is not manicky. That's basically what I mean. So everybody in here right now is reasonably, emotionally stable."
"You testified yesterday that it was certainly preferable to get someone such as Mr. Leatherwood with a bipolar disability into the hospital or to notice a manic episode as quickly as possible; isn't that correct?"
"That's correct."
"You also testified that the beginning symptoms of these types of episodes are a mood swing, increased repetition in speech, things like that; is that correct?"
"That's correct."
"And those types of things, the mood swings, are what you were receiving phone calls about; is that correct?"
"That's correct. As I say, I don't know the precise times of all the phone calls and what each phone call was about.
"If for example the phone—the hyperactivity was obvious and the dysfunction in other people's eyes was obvious and if I saw the patient and didn't at least discuss—consider with him possible adjustment of medication, that would have been an error on my part. I may have made an error. I may have made a misjudgment, but I don't remember that.
"I'd have to look back at the notation as to what my thoughts were about the medication. But that is—it is true that if the individual is having increased hyperactivity, if there's sleeplessness beginning to occur, this is a telltale sign for me and the patient in the long run to learn—for the—have the patient learn to recognize some of these things so that we can adjust medication on the telephone for example with just a call, for example, we need to increase the medication."
"If you are considered to be the learned professional in this particular situation, and two weeks prior to the admission of this patient you did not notice any problem or in your judgment there was not a problem, how can ordinary coworkers or friends and family be expected to spot that sort of thing?"
"I'm not saying that people should spot that. I also was not saying that I didn't spot any problem. He was coming to me on a relatively regular basis because he had ongoing problems. I don't automatically change the medication. I may offer some support, try to understand, try to get the individual to moderate what their activities are which may be self-monitoring, may be reducing some of the stresses."
"Approximately just over halfway down that paragraph towards the right it begins, 'On the day before'?"
"On the day before the night of admission, he was brought home by a neighbor—neighborhood security patrolman who found him lying on the lawn. Subsequently, he asked his cousin to take him to the hospital which he did. However, while admission was being arranged, he ran away from the hospital."
"Continue."
"Apparently, the family contacted Houston Police Department, and officers located him and brought him to the hospital in handcuffs. Patient was agitated, talking about religious themes including Mother Teresa and about the universe being saved. He had attempted on several occasions to run away. He was combative with the staff and had to be restrained."
"This is much the same as the situation in which Mr. Leatherwood was brought to the hospital in the fall of 1988, is it not?"
"That's correct."
Petrou: "Your Honor, I want to state an objection for the record here that I believe that after his termination, this intensive questioning about what happened to him and his hospitalizations is irrelevant."
The court: "Overrule the objection.
"Would you turn to the next page which is page 64? Again, this was written at the time of Mr. Leatherwood's admission in November of 1986, correct? I mean, 1989. It followed the letters that you wrote in August and the forms you filled out in August, correct?"
"Yes."
"About midway down that paragraph there's a sentence that says, '”The patient had been rather stable until the onset of the present illness episode.'  That seems to me to be a bit contradictory to what you just testified to that in the six-week period between his last hospitalization in June and this in the writing of those letters in August, there had been such a significant change in his emotional state that warranted you completely changing your testimony. Does that not appear to be a bit contradictory to you?"
"Rather stable? I mean rather stable basically means that he wasn't manicky for most of that time. It doesn't mean that he was out of the woods or was not having problems. In fact, what I have indicated that my recollection is that there was more depression, discouragement, deep concern about his situation that—but he was stable. He was coming for appointments, he was taking his medication. And only some several weeks before the hospitalization as you've indicated, I received some calls, began to be aware that he was indeed deteriorating again.
"Now, what you're saying is that in that six-week period between June 29th and August the 11th, you keep saying that he appeared to be very depressed. In your opinion, was Mr. Leatherwood clinically depressed during that period?"
"I'm not saying that he manifested a major depressive episode; I'm not making a diagnosis. I'm simply stating the fact that his mood was that of discouragement and considerable apprehension with respect to his circumstances."
"My problem, Dr. Blackburn, is I have a—it may be semantics. It seems to me that rather stable and reasonable emotional stability is quite different from saying that because of these periods, he can no longer continue with his chosen profession. Do you not see a discrepancy in those two or three statements?"
"Not necessarily. He had been—he was rather stable, but not in a state of high function. There's a—particularly in cyclic disturbances such as bipolar disorder, manic depressive disorder, there is a lot of fluctuation. And when I say stable, I mean there's less fluctuation, but it doesn't necessarily mean that things are operating on a perfectly good level."
"It is your testimony that you did not diagnose Mr. Leatherwood as being clinically depressed in August of 1989?”
"I didn't—"
"But isn't it true that he has really never experienced the low—"
"Has never had—"
"—the clinical depression side of the bipolar disorder?"
"That is correct."
"He was low in '89 because he'd lost his job, correct? Is that what you're saying?"
"I was just saying that he was low. I think losing the job is one element of that."
"Most people who lose their jobs do get—have a certain amount of unhappiness, wouldn't that be correct?"
"That's correct. And people who have significant biological mental disorders such as bipolar disorder are more apt in periods of discouragement or loss to have changes in their clinical state. Perhaps to become manic."
"So do we have a responsibility not to allow negative things to happen to people who have bipolar disorders?"
"I would not generalize to that extent."
"In November of 1992, about the time of Mr. Leatherwood's—I mean, November 1989 about the time of Mr. Leatherwood's hospitalization, you wrote another letter, did you not, to a Charles Crane, who was a disability examiner for the Social Security Administration? If you'll look on page 61, you'll find that letter."
"Yes. On November 22nd."
"Would you read for the court the fourth paragraph of that letter?"
"'The degree of psychosis at the beginning of the present admission was more severe than the two previous compensations which I observed. In view of the chronicity, greater than ten years, and the deterioration over the past year, it is my opinion that if the patient is able to return to work at all, it will require at least three to six months more active rehabilitated effort,
"'Although he appeared to be making an adaptation to work from January through April of '89, he has mostly been seriously disabled since about September 1988.'"
"So again, your opinion has changed. Hasn't it?"
"My opinion has not changed. I have different frames of time that I am reviewing the situation."
"In January of 1990, you had an occasion to fill out another one of these forms to Standard Insurance Company. If you'll look in Exhibit No. 4 on page 2."
"Dated January '90."
"And is that your signature at the bottom?"
"It is."
"And this is some two months after that letter you wrote to the disability examiner?"
"But isn't it true that he has really never experienced the low—"
"Uh-huh."
"Would you please read the paragraph in part B where it says 'Medical Prognosis'?"
"For one-and-a-half years there has been major deterioration with multiple relapses and required hospital care. The patient is not expected to ever be able to return to his prior job situation."
"Do you generally tailor your remarks according to the audience to which you're writing?"
"Certainly do. Try to. Sometimes I fail."
"Then on March, 20,1990, you wrote another rather lengthy letter. I believe you'll find that at page 50 in Exhibit 3. Who was it written to?"
"This was to the Social Security or TRC examiners."
"What isTRC?"
"Texas Rehabilitation Commission. This was for purposes of ascertaining his status for Social Security."
"Please read the first paragraph tided 'Chief Complaint.'"
"'The patient is discouraged, frustrated, and fearful about reestablishing himself vocationally and socially due to recurring manic episodes which have resulted in hospitalizations, dismissal from work after more than twenty years and financial disarray.'"
"So the recurring manic episodes has resulted in hospitalizations as well as the dismissal and the financial disarray, correct? That's what that says, right?"
"That sounds good."
"Would you turn over to page 54, which is several pages into this formalized letter. Under D, 'Deterioration or Decompensation in Work or Work-like Setting in the Past Year.' Would you read that paragraph, please?"
"'Since about September 1988, the patient manifests declining ability to sustain his usual work. Management changes at work may have contributed. Personal stress related to relationship to parents and girlfriend may have contributed. Three grossly psychotic manic episodes have resulted in three hospitalizations during the past fifteen months. In spite of effort to return to work or perhaps because of the effort to return to work, deterioration and relapse occurred.'"
"It was your opinion at that time that the prognosis for Mr. Leather-wood was to be considered guarded to poor; is that correct?"
"That would be no doubt correct."
"One final document. On May 6, 1991, you had an occasion to write a letter to Michael Jobst, the benefits representative for Standard Insurance Company. Would you please read the first two sentences in the last paragraph on page 46?"
"'In the fall of 1988, progressive hyperactivity and inappropriate interpersonal interactions led to work dysfunction. A trial back at work in the spring of 1989 was experienced as highly stressful.'"
"And, on page 47."
"'In my opinion the prognosis is good. Present expectations are for his retraining to include part-time work efforts during the spring 1992. Subsequent to that, a trial of gainful employment may be a realistic goal, though not in the pressured newspaper environment.'"
"Dr. Blackburn, do you feel like you placed The Post in any kind of precarious type of position by providing them with releases to return to work for Mr. Leatherwood and then within weeks changing your opinion as to his ability to perform the job?"
"No, I don't. I changed my opinion after the second hospitalization. That was the—after—actually, I changed my opinion after he was terminated from his employment, and I don't—I did not feel that the clinical situation was that different than it had been six times over ten years when he had gone back to The Post and successfully returned to work."
"But all of a sudden you did in August in an effort to achieve disability benefits for Mr. Leatherwood; is that correct?"
"In August after he had become unemployed, his condition was different."
"He needed benefits, didn't he?"
"He did need benefits, that's correct."
"Did you ever give Mr. Leatherwood a release to return to work while you were treating him after June of 1989?"
"I don't recall any situation of doing that."
"In fact you never did, did you?"
"Although there—there would have been no cause for it and no requirement for it in the work that might occur with the vocational rehabilitation thing. The letters that I wrote to TRC are fully in sync with Social Security law, that I don't understand, but there are two arms, I mean, an individual can be disabled and at the same time the TRC works with them to rehabilitate.
"And that's what was occurring, and part of the rehabilitation may be working. We have people working in the veteran's hospital while they're hospitalized. We used to call it industrial therapy. Now it's called incentive therapy, because you have to pay people something; it's not enough to work. But work is therapeutic, and so that's not exactly out of sync with what we're trying to do."
"So it was—at some point became your opinion that Mr. Leather-wood could return to work and possibly even in the newspaper industry; is that correct?"
"I would say that now. I only say that on the basis of the fact that somewhere in the midst of time—I don't have this in my mind—he began to do some writing. And some of the writing—I'm not a critic of writing, but he was writing what seemed reasonable. And I figured if he can write reasonably now, then that might be somewhat related to the newspaper work."
"Did you ever notify the long-term disability carrier or the Social Security Administration that Mr. Leatherwood was now able to work, therefore, no longer required the disability benefits?"
"I don't recall doing that. He was continuing to work with TRC during all the time that I saw him until I last saw him in June of '92. So there was no situation where he was at a point of sustaining gainful employment. He was still in a rehabilitation posture with respect to the TRC. So that didn't come up to my knowledge."
"Dr. Blackburn, did you come here pursuant to a subpoena today?"
"That's correct."
"Are you being paid for your time?"
"No, I'm not."
"Are you on a salary with the VA Hospital?"
"I'm on vacation today and yesterday."
"Thank you. I pass the witness, Your Honor."
The court: "Mr. Petrou, redirect."
Petrou was brief.
"Did the stress factors of dealing with his parents and his girl friend play a major role in his deterioration in December of '88 and in the spring of'89?"
"I think that the issues of the relationships were important but had also been stresses for him over years, and there was no—the most important single change I'm aware of during this period of time during this year or so was the change of his employment. There were always these other problems in the multiple times that he had returned to work before."
"And the defense counsel talked to you about Carl Leatherwood and whether he was violent or not. From examining all of his medical records and from talking to Carl, did you conclude that he was a violent person?"
"No. The only references to violence occurred on the occasions when he was restrained against his will. And on those occasions, he was indeed struggling with the attendants and that is certainly violence, but it's not the kind of violence that we usually are more concerned with."
"Is it therapeutic if Carlton likes to write and desires to write for him to get a job writing?"
"Certainly."
Judge Gibson: "Thank you, Dr. Blackburn. At long last, the witness is excused."